Long absence

I have been so busy during the past six months with a lot of travel - but I am back and will be resuming updates to this blog.

By the way, one thing that annoyed me about the layout of this blog was that all the side information was appearing at the bottom. I tried many solutions to this but ultimately the one which worked (and I know many bloggers have the same problem) was that there were too many entries per page. Reduce the number of entries! (I have it currently set at 5, previously 7.)

'Passing' as a woman

Sometimes this seems to be the Holy Grail of being a t girl. Am I convincing? Can I pass? Can I go out on the streets and blend in?

Well, there are many answers to this. Go out looking like a street whore and you might just look like a street whore - or you might look like a guy trying to pass as a street whore. 

In a previous blog entry I recounted my short time on the streets of Berlin - 'dressed'. Well it was interesting because I was forcibly reminded that the way I like to dress - stockings, heels, suspender belt (not that it was seen) is actually not the way genetic girls choose to dress these days for the most part. So probably the best way to 'pass' is to be as anonymous as possbile and draw absolutely no attention to yourself.

I am thinking along these lines as a result of  something unusal happening to me just a few days ago. A male friend suggested I sign up for a site called Fubar. It is a kind of Facebook but jokier and more disposed to interaction.

Anyway, quite innocently I signed up as 'sissynancy' and stuck this photo there - 

As I was in a hurry I did not go into detailed description etc.

I was hit on pretty early on - by guys. I assumed that the name sissynancy would indicate pretty clearly just what kind of girl I am but it seems not!

One guy in particular was really hot... I reproduce his message to me:-

> pretty,hot,sexy,delicious,cute,elegant...
> you are 1 perfect lady...
> i hope you would like to chat with me sometime
> send me your yahoo id or add me please
> xxxxxxxxxxx@yahoo.com
> take care sweet lady and keep yourself always beautiful

Irresistible! So we 'met' on cam on yahoo and chatted nicely for 30 minutes or so. I always assumed he knew I was not a biological woman. He treated me as a lady but little by little the conversation became more 'sexual'.

Oh the ambiguity of language!

He thought he was working up to a vision of my female pussy - I thought I was working up to a display of my male clit.

Something began to suggest to me that he really did not know...

I became terribly bashful etc etc. He finally realised - said ' you have a cock?' and then disappeared after my answer.

I guess I should be pleased he was fooled for so long even if I did not mean to deceive. 

Very empowering for me even if it was a shock for him.

Going out

This has been a good week for me as sissy. For a start I have dressed almost 100% of the entire week as Nancy. Just a few compromises in terms of going out shopping.

I also met a very nice guy last night who has encouraged me to work harder at making more contacts here in Berlin - so I have signed up for a number of German t girl sites and already have an interesting contact with a TV Mistress who suggests me make videos together.

I also did something I had not done before - venture out while dressed. OK - it was late at night but it was a step forward all the same! People either did not look twice at me - or guys stared at my legs! I suddenly realised that few women in Berlin wear stockings or skirts.

First - at home, ready to go.

Next - in the lift of my apartment building.

Outside! I walked around for about 40 minutes.

New girdle

I have been busy recently and not had a chance to post anything new. 

But here now are some pictures of me in a new girdle - 12 straps! Believe me, there is no going back..

A chastity device is added to stop me getting over excited.

Rubber maid

More to come - working on a video also.

Simple daily pleasures

It is a matter of some regret that I, like so many others, can't dress when I feel like it owing to the pressures f everyday life. But I do think it is really important to find some way of constantly reminding yourself of your sissy status. Here is what I wear - or something very like it - on a daily basis under street clothes.

It mean sthat from neck to toe I am always aware of what I am wearing - with every step I feel the gentle tug on the straps, the sweet rise and fall of the stockings. As I say, a simple pleasure but a lovely one and it has the effect of constantly reminding me that I am a sissy.

Vintage girdle

Another little video...

sissymaid

A little film I made for a sexy Master, showing me getting ready to serve as maid.

Birchplace

Meet Sweet Transvestites in your area

A sissy day

Nancy today.

I have just had a lovely sissy day! For the first time in ages I had no guests and was able to sleep in my silk nightie and then dress and put on some makeup when I got up.

I surfed the net, had a sexy cam chat with a very imaginative young man in NYC (something I do rarely but when one comes across a man who prefers mature gurls... I could not resist it!) I read a lot of t-girl stories on Fictionmania (so glad that is back again); searched for a sissy contract (could not find one - lots of sissy maid and sissy slave contracts out there but none that just concern behaviour as a sissy - I guess I'll have to write it myself). I also got to thinking...

So many of the stories and all the contracts I came across today feature men being feminized by women. As I wrote recently, my own little poll showed that a majority of sissies prefer to have sex with men - yet fiction on the subject is dominated by sissies interacting with women.

Anyway, I have been feeling recently that I should broaden my horizons a little. I have always been looking for cock, of course, and have recently been in contact with a few other sissies (and even had a few sex sessions with a few). but now I am thinking that I should really look for a woman to take me further in terms of realising myself fully as a sissy.

I am sure this will not be as easy as it sounds - after all, I will be competing for the attentions of that minority of women (surely it is a minority?) who actively love feminising men. I just feel I  I have so much to learn from a woman, in terms of feminine behaviour. And hopefully I still have a lot to offer - I am intelligent and experienced in service and obedience. It would be very good for me to give back something to the mighty Feminine that we sissies all adore!

New Year

Well we are now well into the New Year and it is perhaps a time to see if New Year's Resolutions have slipped or not.

Generally, I try not to make resolutions as they are all too often overturned and set aside all too quickly.

Also resolutions must be distinguished from dreams. I would love to see a lot more men this year and be a sissy for them, service them etc etc - but it won't happen unless I make it happen!

However, there have been some developments. I have plans to see a few sissies soon. I am so much into men that i never think of hanging out with other sissies.

Talking of men... my Dom wants me to have a piercing to mark me as his. What do you think of this (above) as a suggestion? The next stage after that, he says, is a contract between us, where I am bound to him as his sissy. 

He treads a fine line between being dominant and being a Master. i don't think he sees himself as a Master - just as a dominant male who knows what he wants and expects to get it from his sissy.

He it is who views me as a sissy. With other guys i am a cd. tv, t girl. With him i am his sissy. He encouraged me to explore that; he wants the ankle socks, the pink dresses etc.  When i write to him i use a ink sissy font. Through him, i discovered this side of myself. i like it all - love dressing in anything feminine; but particularly love being sissy - ultra-feminine. i don't think a lot of guys are into that - but contact me if you are ;)

Poll

I am a little surprised by the results of the poll here. Of course, it is in no way definitive but... my experience has been that most TVS, CDs have been 'straight' and liked women sexually.

My own thinking is that if you wanna be a girl then you want a man. That is where I am coming from anyway. I want to dress as a slut, or sissy, or classy lady and service a guy. I am lucky to have found this but... a slut always wants more ;)